Did you ever find yourself looking into the eyes of your loved one?
Their eyes showing every emotion what they felt that very moment..
That very single moment where their eyes showed the unbridled happiness that they felt; reflecting back upon your own eyes like glistening mirrors…
Your eyes laying witness to the gush of emotions overflowing and emanating from within the deep recesses of their soul…
Their faces glowing with inspiration;
Letting it be known unto you that what you witness is genuinely pure…
The sudden lightness of their body’s movement feigning fatigue and truly unmindful of the burden the world around have brought upon them…
Their happiness you could truly feel.
Their smile you could seemingly embrace.
And at that very moment you thoughtfully wonder whether how you could ever deserve their love…
How despite your shortcomings and mistakes they still would not give up on you…
That YOU who broke their heart many times over and yet managed to still be by your side…
Their pride taking a backseat in exchange to just be with you…
No matter what.
No matter how selfish you are.
They still patiently waited.
No matter how many times you failed to show them that you appreciated them…
They still fervently hoped.
No matter how many times you failed to prove that you truly cared.
They cried in silence.
And at that moment it dawned upon you that you have been treating that person unfairly for far too long;
You thought that they deserved much better.
At that moment you promise to yourself that you would change for that person;
To try to make up for all the mistakes you have done.
Fix it all up.
Be a new YOU.
Be a changed man.
But what truly unfolded upon your very eyes is the truth that you would not want to face.
The horrible truth that makes you want to cringe in agony;
Frustration coming not too far behind.
Despair settling in.
And that is because
That radiant glow in their faces;
That sparkle in their eyes;
That sweetest smile;
That lithe movement;
That very happiness unveiling upon you;
That all.
Where not because of you.
Sucks.
Big time.
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